Friday, December 31, 2010
Today we celebrate our daughter Rose. She would have been 8 today. Eight! The time has gone fast, but at moments it's been slow. We've added three more children to our family since she left us (we now have five here). If you don't know about our daughter Rose, she was stillborn at 38 weeks. Born eleven days from her due date, fully grown, 7lbs. 7oz. What a treasure it was to hold her, and the most difficult thing I've ever done was losing her. Handing her over for the last time to the nurse who just came on duty is almost indescribable. The pain burned into a mother's heart takes a long time to heal. It's not natural or normal to give up your child and continue living when they cannot.
Yet our family continued on. With the love of God, family and friends who shared our sorrow and healing we turned into better people. But there were some financial decisions made during those first couple years that we wished we hadn't made.
We felt bad for our other two children at the time, not having a sister that they should have had. Some of the purchases were a little over the top and we borrowed money that we fully intended to pay back within a year. That didn't happen and we are still paying on those decisions made back then.
So the point of this post is encourage others that may be going through a difficult time or grieving to try not to heal with buying stuff you can't afford. It won't work. Tough times don't last forever and grief takes time to work through.
*Update: Here's what we did on her birthday night:
top image credit: photoxpress/loribogetti